First of December.

Woooh,

I just realize that today is December dy..

Gosh, I'm was so stimmm..

Although bored bored day,

It gone slow gt it past fast.

I'm afraid of the up coming of form 4 life.

It seems scary, terribleee !

Because teacher told us that when u go to f4,

u will realize that f3 and f4 standard 差很远..

and afterthat u will realize that PMR sub sub water only..

Yea ?

Just like now we feel that UPSR sub sub water onlyy ?

The same meaning..

And many of my friends seem so busy in f4..

Awww ~

=/

Haiz..

Wish December will be a fine fineee month..

I hope everything goes fine,

but it's impossible..

It's so hard for me to be happy..

Aiks.

I miss him ; I liked him..

I wanted you !

but I dunno what can I do..

God, save me..

Birthday coming soon again..

A lil bit worried for that..

wonders how will it be..

But no ones know what's going to happen..

I wish this year won't be a unHappy Birthday again..

I'd never been through a Happy Birthday.

And PMR results going to release after that..

I expect 4A's for that only.

How sad ?

I really did bad in my PMR..

but Regret no cure

D:

By the way,

i miss my dearest friends..

yesterday dreamed about Ah Gaik again..

you guys will never know actually I cherished our friendship muchhh..

你们从不知道 朋友 其实在我心中的地位有多高..

其实。。

是最高

曾经，我说过。。

我不再相信友谊了，

因为深深地伤过。。

但。。

在我自己也没发觉到的情况下。。

慢慢地。。

我又把友谊放到最高了

我不知道为什么，

就是那么相信你们。。

爱上你们

有时，

我问我自己，

是我把友情看得太重，

才会伤的那么深吗？

“不是对方不注重你，而是你把对方看得太重”

是酱的吗？

我自己也不懂。。

也有人问过我。。

“ 其实呢

你都很爱你朋友呗

看得出来

你很珍惜他们的

所以才会失望

是吗？ ”

虽然会有失望时候

但我到最后还是很在乎。。

by Ys

20091201

02:53 a.m.

P/S : listening to 阿哲 爱与不爱

&

Chin 等你等到我心痛 when writing this post.

♥ both of the song.

;)

1.我的大名 : 林怡思

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2.我的生日 : 23/12

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3.誰傳給你的 : Shin Yiing

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4.說出五個好朋友 : Err...

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5.生日想要得到什麼禮物 : 一定要物质上的吗？那么。。有礼物收就开心了！ :D

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6.近期開心的是 : 最近最开心的一天是 1122 吧，东于哲！

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7.近期壓力大的是 : PMR成绩吧

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8.未來想做什麼: 不知道

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9.有沒有喜歡的人 : 有

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10.同學會要回去找老師嗎 : Err。。找啊？

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11.跟誰出去最幸福 : 不懂。。自己喜欢的人吧。。

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12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : 看情况吧。。

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13.跟情人出去最想去哪 : 我想去看日出！:D

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14.聖誕節要做啥 : 1225 要去看东于哲咯！

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15.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : 暗恋的他

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16.有沒有起床气 : 不懂，没有吧。。

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17.有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 一个哥哥，两个弟弟

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18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : 一首？选不出。。

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19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) : 选不出一首啦。。

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20.喜歡什麼顏色 : 1 黑 2 白 3 绿

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21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 上了再冲吧

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22.愛不愛我 : Err, 可以吧。。那你爱我吗？哈哈哈

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23.喜歡男生還是女生 : 男吧。。

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24.最想大聲說什麼 : 我。。不知道，哈哈。。

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25.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 :时敢时不敢

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26.上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : 脱啦！

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27.誰很欠打 : 没有人欠打

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28.現在很迷什麼 : 迷偶像？

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29.睡相很差 : 是吧

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30.現在的時間 : 1.26 AM'

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31.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人 : 不会, 反正我没事做 x)

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32.體重多少 : 很重

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33.今天天氣 : Err.. 不懂。。

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34.你懷孕了嗎 : 怀屁啦！

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35.你若中樂透最想做什么 : 赞助他 他想做的事

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36.大學生一定要玩的活動 : 不知道

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37.如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色 你選 : 透明色！

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38.你覺得友情是真心的么 : 看人

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39.身高多少 : 超级矮 D:

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點名人物 :

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1. Zoanne

2. Ke Min
3. Yin Yuen

4. Yi Wen

5. Jia Lu

6.

7.

8.

9.

10.

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（没人点了，救命）

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[ 6-10 空白咯 ]

01-【４號認識６號嗎】：无言
02-【10是男還是女】：不男不女
03-【 ８號的興趣是】：空想
04-【１號有沒有兄弟姐妹】：有～～～
05-【７號姓氏】：白
06-【１０號人緣好嗎】：Err, 你问他啊
07-【4號有人追嗎】：有吧..

08-【承上２號呢】：什么意思？
09-【６號 喜歡的顏色是】：白色 ！xD
10-【３號和１０號是朋友嗎】：3号你认识白白吗？
11-【８號的生日是】：世界末日

12-【９ 號讀哪呢】：读。。不懂。。 =[

13-【你怎麼認識１０號的】：从没认识

14-【你跟１號的生日差幾個月】：4个月0几天
15-【 你和９號有出去玩過嗎】：没有
16-【你喜歡 ２號聊天嗎】：喜欢啊。。
17-【你喜歡和３號在一起嗎】：喜欢 ;)

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Uиrεquıtεd ʟоvε .

现在心情很烦躁耶。。

除了在上个 post 提到的事之外，

还有。。

得知，

他真的要走了，

明年。。

今年快过完了，

怎么办？

我。。

到现在依然从未向他说。。

说我想对他说得话，

说我心里的感觉。。

因为。。因为我害怕被拒绝。。

而被拒绝的指数有高达 95% 吧。。

不懂～

算了，

在此。。

在你永远看不到的地方，

跟你说声。。

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我.喜.欢.你

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其实我一直很注意你的 xx

你的喜怒哀乐我都很在乎。。

但很多时候，我什么也做不了，

帮不了你。。

对不起。。

='/

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Wish you happy alws..

by Ys

20091123

03:15 a.m.

Happy Day ! ;D [ 22.11.09 ]

Yeah !

I'm back, I'm back !

Hoho ~

So happy arh..

xDDD

What a nice day,

hahs ~

TJ was so niceee,

finally gift them present,

My cousin sis n I prepared it for so long timeee,

but since I've to take the album, poster ( so big leh ), then camera..

[ When going up stage for their signature ]

So I have no hand to take the present,

So my cousin bro gave Jack and my cousin sis gave Thomas..

haha, Yea, my cousin sis actually also holding same thing with me but she can take present too..

lol.

how noob am I,

I cant 亲手 gift them..

Hmm,

nvm..

hehs ~

I hold Jack's hand twice ! ( ben lai can 3 one, bt i missed it.. nvm, SATISFIED ! )

then hold Thomas's hand once..

hoho ~

so sweet..

eeeeeeee ~

Bt most of them is hold their hand when go up stage to get their signature,

bt I'm not..

I go up stage photos oso din take, oso no shake hand leh.. D:

I hold their hand when they singing and come down to let us hold oneee..

hahs ~

nt bad arh, i don't regret about this !

Today really very happy,

because didnt have what big thing that I regret..

After get signature,

we standing beside there..

then keep kacau nia..

haha..

Jack was signing,

we keep shout his name..

Bt he still that friendly like last time { Love. 18 } also..

he gt turn and see,

still posing..

bt Thomas at the other side..

so we didnt call him..

cant take tiok photo pun..

At last we still shout :"..."

Lol.

dw to say. xD

If nt meet new friends there we also dun dare do so many thing..

hahs ~

Btw, TJ still wrote my name on album,

my name is Thomas write one because I write my name in english..

Afterthat i just realize that Jack is write chinese name one,

nvm, who write oso cann..

hehs ~

But,

so pity others,

some nt so front de,

erm, about half larh..

nt allowed to write name le,

because TJ nid to rush to the next show, Alor Star there..

they din have enough time..

then more last de ppl more cham,

poster oso cant sign..

O.o

Hmm,

This was the second time Thomas wave his hand to my cousin sis and I when going back ( inside car )..

1st time is when { Love. 18 } too..

hehs ~

Have video,

I love that video so much,

I capture start from they come out from backstage..

untill the car gone. xD

今天是有史以来我最 High 的一次 ！

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I ♥ ThomasJack !

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东于哲万岁!

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haha..

Now I'm just wondering that when Thomas open the present will have what respond..

I want to know ! :O

* lot of photos and videos,

want to see uhh ?

come my house and i will show youuu..

xP

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Ouhh,

something ruined my mood,

my happy day bt now become my sad day..

Why ?

I saw Suvisa's photo !

Yea, she have more thing than me,

is fans club shirt + note book,

I didnt have,,

bt nvm,

I nt sad about that..

Bt I spot that,

TJ still write her name on poster ?!

How come ?!!!

I thought everyone oso like me,

no name on poster..

:O

I'm was so surprise when I saw that..

And my mood oso dropped seriously !

WTH !

mood down lerr..

sobz. T_T

blog editted at 23.11.09 1:39 a.m.

=(

Today..

was quite a meaningless day..

Normally I went church on saturday just half an hour,

but today I stay at there about 3 hours..

Gosh ~

1stly is because my cousin sis ask me to take part in the dance..

At last I promised lo..

actually last week they alrd start,

but I am not there..

Then today,

They dance for 1 hour or more like that,

then I STAND there about 1 hour or more like that.

@@ =SSS `!@#$%^&*()/

because the girl who teach dancing she dunno I and the other one girl want to learn..

then she continue to teach them,

dance tilllllll so far..

my cousin sis din say, she din ask..

den me mah stay quiet lo..

whatever..

Like that lo..

Waste my time..

Argh ! ~

Btw,

today I slept more than 12 hours leh,

so nan de..

And I still rotate 360 degree on the bed,

I mean when I'm was sleeping, hahah ~

Dreamed more than one..

Somemore dreamed that I get my PMR result..

WTH..

Argh,

idw say lerr..

Haiz..

Now wating to watch Yes Sir soon..

And tomorrow,

hoho..

going to see TJ dy..

but dunno why i'm not very excited..

Hmm..

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Wish all the besttt !

Last day of school 20.11.2009

Houh ~
It's all end by today.

And I just realize that actually my closer classmates all is just ok with that only..

I don't see anyone cries. haha..

And I get the certificate of attendance dy, hoho !

So happy.. xD

Fine,

Enjoy holidays !

But I'm was so regret that last time I cut my hair and not keeping side hair..

I thought there sure will be checking hair and I thought it can long fast.

But now I just realize that my hair was still damn short..

Cant be long longg in holidays le larh..

how sad..

Last time not holidays I can keep till so long,

here is the pics

..

I miss that hair so much..

But now,

dunno at the end of the holidays my hair will have that long marh..

If now alrd that long then good..

haiz..

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Stupid me. =[

Last day.

Tomorrow..

I think I should say TODAY..

is the last day of school dy.

I should be happy for the coming of holidays ?

But I'm kinda sad for going to lose contact with my dearest friends..

Maybe we will still contact each other if we really hearts each other deep..

But I can bet that the friendship sure will getting far and far..

Because we SURE cant go in the same class..

since all of my friends choosing different class with me..

Hmm,

The 1st & 2nd time when we saw each other after different class,

There will be a Big Hi ! , A friendly smileee, some talk ?

3rd and 4th time.. A normal Hi, and a smile..

5th time and the following .. a lil smile..

when stay together, dunno wad to talk about, no topic.. alws speechless..

And last,

maybe even a smile oso wont be..

This is the story line of friendship..

Agree ?

Firstly get into the class, I hate that class much..

But now, I'm was so unwilling to leave..

Idw to lose you girls..

This year was the only year,

I celebrate my bday bt not organize by myself..

And I'd never been through any HAPPY Birthday..

Although it was about two months earlier to celebrate my bday..

but I'm was really happy..

It was really sweet..

Miss you guys ! T.T

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I hope tmr, the day can be never end.

=/

Useless school !

Idiot school !

Again,

the last week before holidays still want to check our hair..

some other school alrd start holidays le kay !

somemore all form in afternoon session was having two days of holidays in this week due to F5 SPM,

bt only f3 not !

WTH..

Last year I should get the certificate of attendance one,

because I never absent,

but the last week before holidays,

the prefect checks our hair..

i keep on hiding all the days..

but the second last day..

she came to my class while recess time and check my hair..

She call me to cut if not want deduct me 4 marks..

hell, last day dy still want ppl cut hair..

so i absent for the last day..

If not I can get the cert !

So fcuking angry..

I never thought that this year will be like that again..

Until now,

I still never absent even though this year is my PMR year..

and many ppl like to absent before exam even it's only a normal exam,

I am so not understand those guys..

"arm-pia" ??? - - = =

Whatever, not my business..

Back to the topic..

Today,

When the prefect started checking hair,

so many people rush to toilet,

including ME..

Argh..

Afterthat nearly bell ring then we go back,

then she alrd stop checking,

she just checked a few person..

but also means that this week she will check our hair..

Yea.. I mean everyone in class..

What to do ?

Idw to cut my hair.

But Idw to absent too..

Bian Tai school ! ~

D:

12.11.2009

Watched <2012> ;

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Bought TJ's album..

So happy ! ~

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;DDD

Learnt to be independent ?!

Today was the Sign Languange Competition,

that was also one of the thing I worried yesterday..

No, I didn't take part in that.

I'm worry because my classmates that joined dancing lesson with me took part in that..

So I'm worry that I will be alone..

I D W ! D:

Actually there are still two of my classmate didn't join the competition,

but one alws absent, include today ! =/

another one, I don't think she really want to dance,

She told that she won't be going dancing lesson today and it was real !

Hell,

guess what ?

I'm was really alone today !

Hate it..

Most of my friends encourage me not to go the dancing lesson,

but..

Yesterday chat with FeiFei,

I told her,

and she said . . .

"Must learn to live alone dy"

Urgh ?

And I also tried to look the bright side,

Maybe without them, I can be more concentrate ?

Since I'm alws so useless,

So I hope I can learn to be independent..

And finally I attend the lesson alone,

Yes !

No Friends, No Talk.

Argh ~

It doesn't feel good,

really !

Again,

When they was repeat the dance that I didn't learn due to the KDU lawatan,

I standing there like a KAYU..

they keep looked at me..

=(

It was so embarrassed !

Aww ~

Somemore they dance that song twice or thrice,

I'm feeling like gonna dig a hole and put my head in it !

WTH !

Argh..

Afterthat,

learn new steps,

finally I knew what my problem,

I can't rmb the step,

I'm was the worse in there..

Sobz.. T_T

I'm so useless ! =/

一日之间..

崇拜好多人..

唉 ~

这也不是第一次啦,

谁叫我什么都比不上人家,

废人一个 !

昨天,

没上舞蹈课..

因为学校安排的 lawatan,

到 KDU college 去

结果今天就跟不上人家了..

=[

没用！～

自从去年某件事让我对舞蹈失去信心后，

我就再也没有碰过它了..

这次参舞蹈 也不是很自愿..

但既然进了，

就想做到最好..

前几天都没事,

但今天..

好烦 !

我又再次失望了,

对我自己失望..

刚睡醒冲凉而已，

心情很烦躁..

Haiz ..

I hope I can do well in something ! D: