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Hi :)

enjoyed holidays for 5 months dy..

What I did?

Sleep, eat, facebook, TV, hang out~

Nothing meaningful.

No working.

(I wanted actually! but transport problem, and..parental..?

Like this and like that.. So, I didn't work) -.-

Not yet get car license.

(Also like this and like that,

postpone and postpone.. So!) -.-

Anyway,

I've finally attended my first car practial.

Thanks god~

I met a very very good,

super duper nice,

i super duper likey de..

car instructor! :D

Because at the first I was very afraid I will let the "uncle" teach..

I inquired before I go to practical,

because I really no confident in driving,

I feel myself so dumb!

And add on,

an accident happened on me,

when I was in primary..

I wasn't sure how old I was..

might be..

standard 4 or 5?

Hmm..

I collided a kid,

 and hurted his face when I was cycling at penang hill.

His dad yelled at me angrily..

Asking me where's my dad?!

Hmm, malay~

I really scared.

Damn scared.

I cried.

And afterthat incident,

I never cycled for years..

And it formed me fear towards vehicles, traffics..

Oops,

exclusive secret!

I also don't know why I'm feeling to say out at this moment,
hesitating~
hmm..
I hardly tell anyone about this.

I think even my bros, cousins also don't know? :)

Alright,

back to topic.

I heard they say under my agent,

 there was an uncle car instructor

used to scold people!

Ohno :S

And even take off his shoes step on YOUR foot to control your "clutch"!

Ohmygawdddd.

So the day before I have my car practical,

I very very worried!

I wonder which car instructor I will met?

Furthermore,

right on the day before I have my first car pratical,

I went Town Steamboat Restaurant with ex-classmates.

And two cars go,

both also crashed car at different time.

HELL YEAH!!!

Why so unfortunately?

It makes me even more no confident!

Alright,

on the actual day..

26/4,

my first car pratical,

briefly,

A GREAT DAY.

When I saw my car instructor,

I was like..

OHHHH really "thanks sky thanks floor" ah!~~

haha

He gave me lotsa confident.

I can't forget when he said : "You drive la, I sleep first~"

LOL!

He said it few times,

but of course he didn't xD

And,

for the first time of pratical,

he already let me drive from Cemerlang,

err Sg.Dua? (sorry, road-idiot here~) -.-

to Farlim!

What a great experience!

Anyway,

I ain't satisfied with my driving.

Really dumb -.-

Somehow,

I always think that..

Did i drive?!

It is so not real! :S

Lastly,

I met..

"someone" there..

someone who made my heart beats so fast in a moment,

(is it called as "butterflies in the stomache?")

but also heart broken in a moment.

:S

Nothing much actually.

I feel like writing it here just to remind myself this cute, memorable memories in the future.

A passer by~

:)

So, that's all about first pratical thingy~

Ouh again,

crap for so long from a minor statement -.-

Almost forgotten the main point I came to wite this post...

I do seriously thinked for my future study these months..

outcome?

getting lost..

Form 6 is going to register on the coming Tuesday,

8/5..

LYS, are u sure u are going form 6?

3 days more to register but your hair is still brownish + LONGGGG.

Urgggghhh,

reluctant,

unacceptable..

NO!

I haven't make up my mind!

I wonder..

most of them going f6 because parental's force.

I have choice,

is it stupid if I go that way?

I don't know why form 6?

I persisted that I wouldn't, NEVER EVER go this way!

That's why I will dyed my hair.

It's still not that cruel if I know I will be going f6 from the beginning.

Yea, psychological.

But,

my mind swayed when I was hesitating about college.

Because I'm lost.

Somehow,

f6 is just like my destiny?

I DON'T KNOW!

Stop asking me the same question.

It make me headache, annoyed whenever I see the question.

Unless, you intend to give advice.

The hardest decision is choosing the way YOU SHOULD or the way YOU WANT.

But if you don't even sure about they way you want,

there's no point for saying this.

Your life path is not depend on your destiny, it is depend on your choice?

Maybe I would rather to have no choice.

 

我是路痴

一到分叉路口，

就会迷路。

我以为我可以很潇洒，

剪头发而已嘛。。

反正都短了11年啦，

再短多1年半也没差啦~

但每当突然静下心来认真想的时候，

“剪头发”

这三个字，

我原来没有我想象中那么潇洒。

看着好不容易过肩的长度，

11年来，

没那么长过。。

留得很辛苦，

还没毕业就开始努力留！

已经超过半年没剪了。。

“尴尬期”很难熬。。

虽然还没过，

但现在剪掉，

等于半途而废。

越讲，越不舍。。

别跟我说：“头发很快就会长的”

头发是我的，

你不会理解！

我觉得。。

我真的。。

会哭。。

只是时候未到而已。。

:'(

就像我上面说的，

如果我不是一开始就抱着这种心态，
一直心想着：

等了那么多年，

我终于可以留了。。

我的头发终于放生了。。

或许我会比现在还接受得了。。

几个月前，

我真的完全不考虑中六！

现在？

我也不懂我该怎么说了。。

我只知道，

时间 一天一天的过去。。

我似乎作了决定，

却又似乎没有。。

但，

如果为了头发，

而不读中六/转校。。

我也觉得很不理智。

它只是其中（但也可以说是绝大部分）。。

我不知道为什么我要上中六？

就因为我不知道要上什么学院、读什么科？

中六能够担保前途吗？

我怕我走错路而白白牺牲头发。。
因为，
我并没有真正选择这条路，
只是没有选择另一条路。。

我不懂

我不知道

我不明了

我不晓得

我迷惘

可否让我回到从前？

越久以前越好。。

小学？

幼稚园？

Photo taken days ago,

I scare I have no chance to tie up my hair if I didn't do it now.

by Yisher

7:35 AM

5.5.2012